Friday, August 05, 2005
♥ sad n sick
i think im falling sick soon..stomach pain the whole of today...and got back my test paper for internet marketing..haha im discouraged...super sad..juz felt so useless...and meaningless...and ya..i expected this grade actually...but disappointed bah..i did study...somehow i juz cant do the paper...i dun bother about ica 2 either...coz simply no mood man...why am i leading such life....i cant be happy..i cant get the things i want...i cant do a single thing well... i felt that im fallin into a hole..and nobody bothers to pull me up too...haiz...i cant even express myself well enough... what izzit that im lack of...
and ya..patrick ask me no need come work tml..izzit im not good enough..not up to the standard he wants...its a good thing i no need to work tml...but..im sad though...everybody doubts my ability..IM USELESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i realli hate myself to the core...i cant even reach sch on time when lessons starts at 2pm today...i realli need to go temple and pray....im not happy everyday...can someone tell me why...
suppose to go town today...but my stomach so pain tat time...im afraid im gonna faint again. so went hm..sudden urge to eat ba chou mee..call my sis and ask her come down eat with me...she dun want..so eat alone...and this cleaner keep staring at me eating..wth..dig his eyes out man.. faster get hm before stomach pains again. mum not at hm again..haven seen her for days...ate 2 bars of dove chocolate...im already having a sore throat...but i juz cant resist it...especially when im so depress...
everything juz doesnt go smooth for me....felt like crying..like shouting out loud..i learnt something...nobody will respect u if you are of no value...we are livin in such a reality world man...!!!!!!! i may not have luck like others...i may not be capable like others...people look down on me..but i'll be stronger..
and ya..patrick ask me no need come work tml..izzit im not good enough..not up to the standard he wants...its a good thing i no need to work tml...but..im sad though...everybody doubts my ability..IM USELESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i realli hate myself to the core...i cant even reach sch on time when lessons starts at 2pm today...i realli need to go temple and pray....im not happy everyday...can someone tell me why...
suppose to go town today...but my stomach so pain tat time...im afraid im gonna faint again. so went hm..sudden urge to eat ba chou mee..call my sis and ask her come down eat with me...she dun want..so eat alone...and this cleaner keep staring at me eating..wth..dig his eyes out man.. faster get hm before stomach pains again. mum not at hm again..haven seen her for days...ate 2 bars of dove chocolate...im already having a sore throat...but i juz cant resist it...especially when im so depress...
everything juz doesnt go smooth for me....felt like crying..like shouting out loud..i learnt something...nobody will respect u if you are of no value...we are livin in such a reality world man...!!!!!!! i may not have luck like others...i may not be capable like others...people look down on me..but i'll be stronger..
♥ And did I tell you that Im falling deeper each time..
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